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I’ve never had a New Year’s resolution before. Well… I think I had one once in high school, and I think it was to not have a resolution. They just seemed silly to me, like a list of promises that you pretty much just jinxed yourself into not keeping. For the most part, they still do.

I’ve got a couple this year… two, actually. They’re not silly promises I don’t really want to keep (like “I resolve to suddenly become a vegetarian”) or couldn’t keep no matter how hard I tried (like “I resolve to blog once a day, every day for a year” or “I resolve to keep my room shiny clean until 2009″). No, these are actually… attainable.

The first one, I can’t share. It’s a wee bit embarrassing, actually, and pretty personal. I’ll gladly leave you in the dark on that one.

The second one is one that I should have made… well, ages ago. This is the one I really want to check up on in a year, to make sure I’ve done what I said to do. I want to get my life moving again.

I’m almost twenty-one. I need to get up, get moving, and start living. Carpe diem and all of that. I need to get my license. I need a car. I’d love to go back to school. I’d love to get out and just do things, be someone besides an extension of what I used to be. I’ve got an entire year… and an entire lifetime. I don’t want to just be taking up space anymore. I want to do whatever it is that I’ve been put here to do… and do it wholeheartedly. Whatever that means — whatever it takes.

It was really entertaining coming home to my loyal feed reader today after work and reading entry upon entry of “Merry Christmas!” and “Happy Holidays!”

Pardon me for being a little Scrooge-y today, but today at work I saw a lot of cranky Christmas shoppers. Seriously, everybody was grouchy, hurried, and had awful attitudes. It’s like the entire town was PMS-ing on the same day.

You’re probably thinking I’m just saying that because I don’t even celebrate Christmas, but I used to, and I noticed it then. I feel bad for God on days like these, because the entire world’s gone greedy and grouchy, and all in His name. Unfair for him!

So this Christmas, remember why it is you are all celebrating, and try to smile and be nice to people for a change. As for me? Happy Hanukkah, guys!

I have a confession to make. I saw High School Musical. I liked it. A lot.

Edit: And now I’ve seen HSM2 as well. I liked it… just not as much as the first one.