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I’ve been getting this message from a million different directions recently… that life is too short for all the crap we’ve got going on. One of my closest friends could have died very recently in a car accident, and everything she’s been saying since has confirmed this. One little thing in your life could go slightly differently, and boom… you could be gone. Life is too short for all of the things we are and are not doing.

I feel like I need to make a lot of changes in my own life. A lot of changes. I feel resolute; I feel like this whole thing is so fleeting and I’m wasting my time with inactivity. I need to get up and go. I’ve come up with a list of New Year’s Resolutions. Now, before you tell me that it’s not the new year just yet… I’m thinking more along the lines of “I want to check back on myself around New Year’s, and I want to see if I’ve actually done what I set out to do.”

I want to:

• Get my driver’s license. Stop being so afraid of driving.
• Write a novel this month.
• Clean my room, and keep it clean.
• Learn guitar. By that I mean, stop being afraid of all of the scary sounds my guitar makes when I abuse it, and work towards making those scary noises stop. Oh, and not be so afraid of somebody hearing said scary noises.
• Actively save money for Israel.
• Take that PHP/MySQL class I’ve been wanting to for a couple of months.
• Finish redesigning LB’s site… because I haven’t once followed through on that.
• Release a WordPress theme and keep up with it.
• Develop a portfolio and work towards freelance web design… for real.
• Get back to working towards scholarships… and maybe eventually get into college… again, for real.
• Actively communicate with more than my three closest friends… and quit being so antisocial!
• Spend less time reading about other people’s fictional lives, and more time living my own.
• Go to bed before one in the morning so I’m not a zombie the next day.
• Along the same vein, get to work ten minutes early instead of rushing in right on the dot. Be on time more in general. Be better planned out.
• Lose weight.
• Love quietly and wholeheartedly.
• Never have to be resigned to a life of twenty-two cats.
• Journal and blog more.
• Wake up early on my days off instead of sleeping until ten or eleven. Take a walk. Watch the sunrise. Do something productive.
• Plan something fun for my twenty-first birthday.
• Stop relying so much on friends, emotionally. Smile more. Complain less.
• Look at myself in a more positive light.
• Ride a roller coaster. No, really. Even if I have to be dragged onto it, I want to ride one.
• Learn to ice skate.
• Start dancing again. It’s high time. I want to choreograph a new dance. I want to dance to all the old ones until I fall over.

These are really random, I know. But honestly… life really is too short to waste time Youtubing all the time. I feel like I’ve got to get my life in gear, take control of my life and live it to the fullest… not just goals and dreams and changes, but FUN too.