Archive for November, 2007

Connections

Thursday, November 29th, 2007

This may be just completely me.

I’ve found a lot in my life that it’s hard to connect to people, more than just a “hi, how are you,” unless you share something that makes you vulnerable. Especially girls. I remember back in middle school that the one point when I felt I really connected with someone, to the point of becoming actual friends with them, was when one of us told the other “who we liked.” Call it a middle-school-girl thing, but I think it still holds true as we get older.

I remember in seventh grade, I plopped myself across from this one girl I thought I could be friends with and started up a conversation about this guy I couldn’t get to notice me. Turns out, she had gone to school with him, and the longer we talked… the more connection we had. We ended up being best friends.

One of my managers isn’t really that much older than me, and though I’ve been there a year, there’s still no connection. At all. Last night I ended up talking to her (well, more like letting her talk while I listened) about this guy she’s been having problems with. And maybe it’s just middle-school era coming out again… but now I feel like the two of us have some kind of basis to build upon.

Does that make any sense? Or do I just need more sleep?

New Portfolio Entry

Friday, November 23rd, 2007

I added LB’s site redesign to my portfolio. Check it out!

What I’m Thankful For

Friday, November 23rd, 2007

Every year on Thanksgiving, my family has a time-honored tradition. Before we start eating, and after we say a prayer, we go around the table and everyone has to say one thing they’re thankful for. It can be anything… from family to a new job to the Care Bear they received earlier that day (that would be the seven year old).

Also, since becoming “Messianic,” we’ve tended to eat our big meal on Friday, sort of as a combination Shabbat/Thanksgiving feast. So here I am, dinner in a few hours, and I’m trying to think of the one thing I’m thankful for.

It’s not that I have nothing to be thankful for. I’ve got my family, my friends, my job, a roof over my head, an internet connection, food, and water (yes, in order of priorities!). Nobody close to me has died lately, there’s been no major disasters, and I’m still in one piece. But I feel like that’s what I say every year. My family. My friends.

If I was to be honest, I really would probably say my friends this year. There’s been a few of you that have really been helping me keep my head above water this past year. Listening and letting me vent. Understanding my situation. Coming to me with your problems (which actually really blesses me). Letting me just kick back and have a good time without the fear of being judged. There’s about three of you I know I wouldn’t be able to live without, and I’m so thankful for you.

Also, I’d say my family. I know I haven’t been the greatest daughter. I know I’ve been an outright pain. I know you wish I would have turned out differently. But you know what? I know you’re always going to be there to support me, no matter what.

See? I’d say family and friends. Cliché, but true.