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Yeah, so sometimes following the lunar calendar drives me nuts. I mean, as if it wasn’t bad enough that ever since the whole “Abib barley” issue a year and a half ago we’re following two different schedules… now I can’t even get my own dates right in my own head.

Somehow I got my dates mixed up and asked for the wrong days off work… and didn’t notice it until about fifteen minutes ago. So I’ll probably have to open on Yom Kippur instead of getting it off, and goodness, who knows what that’ll do to my Sukkot? Not only that, but the general manager is in California for a week, so I’ll have to get someone else to take pity upon me and change my schedule for me.

I love my job, I really do. It’s a lot more fun than a lot of other places I’ve heard about. I just hate how I have such a wonky schedule and how even that gets changed up at the drop of a hat. I mean, yesterday I almost had to close (which means not getting out of there until eleven on a good night, which it shouldn’t have been, being church night) and then open this morning (which means be at the door at 5:25 a.m. after walking to work). Thankfully, I got my schedule adjusted so I could go home two hours before closing. Still, though, it’s the principle. I’m the kind of person that, in an ideal world, or even living by myself, would create a schedule for myself that involved staying awake until three and then not waking up until ten or so. I’d be perfectly happy. So this going to bed around nine and getting up at four thing has totally thrown me for a loop. I feel like I have jet lag.

Yes, I’m here! It’s been quite some time since I posted, especially since I’ve been meaning to do that more. I’ve been so caught up in stuff and projects:

• Work (the last two weeks I’ve worked 35 hours a week!)
• Mom’s site (http://its-time.info)
• Trying to keep up with friends and maintain normal everyday life

Life’s been mostly good (and the last time I said “mostly good,” Lisa challenged me)… relatively busy with nothing really exciting going on. Oh, except for my “date” yesterday with Becky. Sorry, Jessyca and Tegan, Becky got to me first! We had no idea where to go, so we ended up going to this Mexican restaurant (which Becky claims is NOT what she was aiming for) and eating nachos with a pound of cheese and just gabbing.

This week I’m opening at five thirty a.m. every day until Shabbat… which is going to seem glorious! I’m so not a morning person!! So anyhow, I can’t promise I’ll update a bunch, but I’ll try. I really will.

For the past three years, ever since I made a conscious decision to tithe my teenage years to God and that I didn’t believe in dating anymore, I’ve had a lot of people who are absolutely amazed by my “conviction.” People are convinced that I must be so strong to decide that I won’t date at all and won’t be in a relationship until I hit at least twenty… and then sticking to it. Everyone thinks that’s so “holy,” so awesome, such a wonderful example.

But you know what? I’m overrated. What I usually don’t tell people is, even though I’ve decided that I won’t date or be in a relationship right now… I’ve never had the chance to say no. You heard me right! Nobody’s ever “asked me out” or even shown any interest in me. I know that if I had the chance, I’d say no, emphatically no. But I’ve never been given the chance, and therefore I’ve never said no, and therefore I’m just like every other person on the face of the earth.

I turn twenty in six months. Some stupid part of me wishes that someone WOULD show an interest, just so I can prove to myself that I can hold up to my convictions. That’s stupid, though. The whole thing is like saying “I won’t watch TV for the next five years,” and then moving to a third-world country where they don’t even have electricity. You never walked into a room where the TV was on and had the conviction to walk back out. Is it the same? What do you guys think?

Edit: Jessyca was kind enough to IM me and ask me out so that I could say no. I feel much better now. HA!